Why so fascinated?

I think if I had to answer why I am so interested in the Paranormal, it would have to be because I am I guess what you would call Agnostic. I want to beleive in everything, but can't fully beleive in anything until I have experienced it or seen it for myself. If I were to see a ghost or experience something similar to that, I would feel less afraid about dying, and know that something DOES go on after death and that we are not just worm food. It's something I think about alot. A little to much probably.